Dear Fear…

Fear

I am breaking up with you.  We have been in a relationship that hasn’t fulfilled me for far too long.  You are so selfish.  You’re like the “friend” that shows up to the potluck empty-handed, but takes several plates (& a bottle) home. You keep taking from me and haven’t given me anything in return.

At the end of last year, I told myself to let go of anything that stole from my joy. Yet, I brought you with me into the new year. You were so familiar to me that I didn’t know what it would be like without you. But I have to let you go now.

It’s not me, it’s you. I have let you stunt my growth.  Because of you, I continue to live paycheck to paycheck. You’re the reason I shy away from love. It’s also your fault that I have only talked about my dreams & haven’t taken the steps to actually accomplish them…until now.

I don’t want to be in the same place this time next year.  I can’t keep watching people achieve their goals while I remain stagnant.  I don’t want to be left behind. I don’t want to be the weakest link among my group of amazing friends.

I have had enough.  You’re never going to change. You’re never going to give me what I need or help me get to where I want to be. You told me that I couldn’t be more or have more. You told me that I wasn’t talented, smart, or attractive and that I would fail if I tried. I realize now that those were all lies to keep me with you.

They say it’s better the devil you know than the one you don’t.  Well, I know you too well. I don’t like you and I don’t need you. I know there is something better out there for me. I am ready to venture out and find it.

So I packed your things in a box to the left. Please leave your spare keys on the table. I wish you the best…and no we can’t be friends.

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4 Comments Add yours

  1. That’s right! There’s no room for fear here! Love this post. So proud of you.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Carleen says:

    Well said. Fear can be healthy but not when it impedes you.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Michaaelle says:

    Well said! Onward and upward

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Eva says:

    Yes girl!

    Like

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